Have yourself a Merry little Christmas

However, I still have the time to wish everyone a .....

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

We wish you a merry xmas, we wish you a merry xmas, we wish you a merry xmas and a happy new year. Good tidings we bring, to you and your kin .......

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way,.......

Last christmas, I gave you my heart, the very next day you gave it a way, this year.....

I'm dreaming of a white christmas, just like the one's I use to know, may your dreams be merry and bright.....

Wasted, cant hear me sing the Medley....hope those lyrics are correct...

Ho...ho...ho....

So little time

Dear readers,

I got so much to write but so little time.

Busy...busy...busy....

*Sigh*

Places in Malaysia that I have stepped foot in...

1. Kangar - Perlis
2. Penang
3. Ipoh - Perak
4. Pulau Langkawi, Sungai Petani, Alor Setar & Kulim - Kedah
5. Pulau Tioman - Johor
6. Melaka
7. Port Dickson & Seremban - Negeri Sembilan
8. Kuantan - Pahang
9. Pulau Redang - Terengganu
10. Kuching - Sarawak
11. Sibu - Sarawak
12. Selangor

Last but not least.....

13. Kuala Lumpur

*hahahahaha*

Places out of Malaysia that I have stepped foot in

Saw this in my friend's blog, so decided to create one for myself too :)

1. Singapore
2. Thailand
3. Hong Kong
4. England
5. Scotland
6. Switzerland
7. Germany
8. Belgium
9. Holland
10. Spain
11. Liechtenstein
12. Austria
13. Italy
14. France
15. Australia
16. Korea

Places I am planning to go next are....

1. China
2. Japan

Brain Teaser

Makers dont want it...
Buyers dont use it.....
Users dont see it.....

Answer :: ?

What goes up and down but never moves?

Answer :: ?

Scuttlebutt II

This morning, while I was on my way to breakfast, I bumped into the guy who spread the rumor. He was surprised to see me. He has the ‘you are found guilty’ kind of look. He didn’t greet me; in turn I greeted him and he acted cool, giving the snobbish look.

Seeing him really make me feel like giving him a flying kick on his face.

&^%$#@!*&

Lonely

I do agree with this. I do feel that. :(

Thought

My thought tells me that I want to leave this place and start life anew in a fresh place. But my self conscious tells me I cant leave my family behind. Sometimes I really don't know what is wrong with me. I kept having this thought that I have not done good enough and I am selfish. I just can't explain my feelings. I can be happy for that moment and sad for the next moment.

Ahhhhh.....dont care...dont bother.....

In loving memory of Kok How

Many are celebrating Autumn Festival today. But for me, it's not a day to light the lantern; it's a day whereby I lit the joss stick and pay my last respect to him.

News came to me in the morning. I was speechless and shocked. He passed away at 715am after having difficulty in breathing. He has been very strong in accepting the fact that he is not getting any better. A friend told me that he once said he is not afraid of death, he is just afraid of leaving us as he is going to miss us dearly. I broke into tears. It is really sad to see him leave. Perhaps, it is good for him as it will cease his sufferance. It really grieves me in seeing his sorrowful family.

I hereby pay my last tribute of respect to you and you will forever be remembered and missed by your family and friends.

Nectar

Was having my window shopping in KLCC and came across this Nectar in Chocz, KLCC. It's the uniqueness in preparing the drink that caught my attention in the menu. There are 3 flavors available, dark chocolate, milk chocolate and white chocolate. Nectar comes with a step by step guide in enjoying it and it goes like this ::

Step1 :: Begin the ceremony by lighting the flame

Step 2 :: Fill half the metal cup with warm milk

Step 3 :: Add chocolate chunks until desired density

Step 4 :: Stir constantly with the spoon until smooth dense chocolate is achieved

Step 5 :: Relax...now you are ready to suck the sweet nectar through the straw

Chocolate made in heaven! I'm lovin it! Quick, go indulge yourself in this Nectar from Chocz!

Scuttlebutt

Words cannot describe how frustrated, disappointed and hurt I am when I got to know my friends and ex-colleagues are talking about it!

Rumours had been spreading that I was having an affair that causes my break up, was beaten up by the person that I am having affair with and my ex is using me to past his time. It is so silly of the person who created such hearsay. If it is not my friend who came and clarify with me, I wouldn’t have known it is on the air!

I find it ludicrous of the person who has no life and nothing to do but to create such rumour and spread it around.

Worst of it all, my ex knew about it and he did not even defend or inform me of such rumours about me and him. He just kept quiet when I confronted him. He knew it before me, the person spreading it and he also knew the person who started it!

Add on to my frustration, he went and twist the story around and put the blame on me for the break up whereby it is so obvious that he left me for another girl. Being his gf and friend for more than a decade, I really could not imagine such incident would supervene. *Sigh*

Am glad that my buddy was there for me to give me a shoulder to cry on and hear my thoughts. I felt much better after that.

Thank you so much.

Haze Mad

Haze Mad,
originally uploaded by Shizumi.

Another great idea contributed by this person. I couldnt stop laughing when I received this from my friend. Pictures looks local tho, especially the kapcai. It can work as an airbag too by inflating his BCD. *hahaha*

Hey, but at least he is getting clean air!

Bluppp....bluppp..

I am back!

Finally, I have completed my open water dives. I had so much fun diving. I am getting addicted to it! However, I totally agreed with P that the only hindrance for diving is the $$$.

Alright, just to let you folks know that I am back safe, not that tan, happy, and tired to my own land.

Will update more on the trip once I have all the pictures. :P

Tioman, here I come!

Journey begins tomorrow @ 5am. We are going for our open water dives before we are certified. My first time to Tioman and also my first time diving in an open water, so hopefully everything goes well.

Will update more when I am back.

Down again?

Why am I still feeling down?

I shouldnt be feeling that way at all....

I just want to be myself and do what I want without boundaries....

I should be happy and jumping around for joy.....

It's my life, my choice and my future!

I have been on this earth for 27 years, that's not to say long but then again, it's never short. So I must spend some time to think on how my foundation will be paved, how myself will be and be there looking back at my life and say "What a great life, I would not have it otherwise"

In denial

Was really frustrated with this colleague of mine. He took back our department's notebook for some proposal that he needed to do. In fact, the notebook was loaded with some expensive application that we paid in Euro dollars 2 years back.

So, yesterday, he came back with the notebook telling me that something went wrong and the notebook couldnt boot up. The whole thing gone! He claimed that he didnt touch or erase anything from the notebook. He also told me that her daughter did play some games using the notebook. Hence, I presumed that her daughter must have accidentally erased it or something.

Do you think it will be just like that out of a sudden without touching anything? I dont think so as I have checked with my MIS guy and he informed that definitely he has done something that causes the problem (unintentionally).

Worst part is, he kept on denying and saying 'I dont know' and 'I didnt do anything' in repetition. Come on, just admit that 'maybe' you or your daughter have accidentally press some buttons that causes it to be like this lah.

Hobnobs

Hobnobs,
originally uploaded by Shizumi.

This is the nicest oat biscuit I have ever tasted. Found it in tesco.

Go try it yourself! :)

Addictive

Something is really wrong. I have this addiction to shopping. I just feel like buying anything and everything. Not only having the feeling, I can even buy anything and everything if my wallet permits to. I am going to turn into a shopaholic soon!

A calamitous defeat, so, PLEASE HELP!

If animals were movie stars

diary,
originally uploaded by Shizumi.

Cheerio!

Pons asinorum

What's wrong with it?

Why my post always appeared without any line spacing? And everytime I have to re-write it in a new post, then only it will appear as what has been transcribed.

*Shrug*

Did you know....

• those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
• those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
• the 3 most difficult things to say are : I love you, Sorry and Help me?
• those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
• those who dress in yellow, are those that enjoy their beauty?
• those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
• when you help someone, the help is returned in two-folds?
• it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
• if you ask something in faith, your wishes are granted?
• you can make your dreams come true? If you ask for it by faith and if you really know, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But dont believe everything I tell you until you try it for yourself. If you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-folds.

Grippe

Was down with flu, cough and fever on Friday. Took MC and head back home for a rest. Couldnt even make it for my pool session class (scuba diving) on Sunday :(. Heard it was fun.

Weekend before was pampering and now it's the other way round. God is really fair. There are times when you really enjoy and there are times when you have to suffer. Perhaps, it is called the equal treatment to taste the both sides of a coin.

My friend once told me that panel clinics have their limitation in giving medication to their patients. Paraphrase - they give cheap medicines. I wasnt quite sure about it until I experienced it myself. I have finished up my medication course but I am still feeling unfit. In turn, I have to take Panadol to subside my fever and the flu pill which my Mom requested from her own doctor.

Humor

This colleague of mine is always full with jokes. Today, he cracked up one that goes like this -

"Why is it called Happy Father's Day"
Answer :: It is when the wife doesnt meet the mistress.

Once in a while, I just need some laughs to boost up my energy level for the day.

Indulgence

Weekend was good for me as I was indulged in a total relaxation.

Saturday :: I leisured myself to an aroma spa, sea salt scrub, fat burning massage and infra-red wrap. All these were treated free. Yes, free! Why? Cause I signed up for the 1st trial slimming again. This 1st trial session comes with the promotion Buy 1 free 1.

Sunday :: Facial and aroma relaxing body massage.

Wanted to add up more to my indulgence list, but was restricted by the powerful force called 'Money'.

*Sigh*

Interesting Blog

Check out this interesting blog that has became the 'talk of the town' in Singapore.

Enjoy reading folks!

But why?

After much contemplation, I have decided to venture myself into selling unit trust as my 2nd business income. Decision emanated when my friend enlightened me about this rewarding business, which he is currently in (he is earning big bucks now!). With this, I hope I can achieve a financial freedom status in the near future by leveraging (hopefully).

I have chosen my friend to be my upline, as he is the one who approached and share this business idea with me first. However, this decision has ultimately affected my ex's feelings of dissatisfaction. He actually claimed that he is the one that approaches me first and that I should be his downline. Why? His downline will actually contribute to his furtherance of promoting to a supervisor and enjoy overriding commission. You see, I dont mind letting him earn the overriding commission but I am trying very hard here to forget him and also not to have any dealings with him. Being my upline will have to make sure that I am in proper guidance and support. I will also have to liaise with him often. So, if this permits, how am I going to banish him from my thoughts? Seeing him will only stir up my feelings again and it's even more difficult to let go.

At some point, having the softer side in me (those who knows me well), wanted to just proceed with it, in order not to create any displease. But I have to make a stand. I have to prevent him from playing with my feelings again (frankly, he has been doing it once in a while, esp during the time when his gf is away). He is like a fisherman holding a rod and caught me by the hook in my mouth but do not choose to pull me up, just keep letting go of the line and anytime want to use or play with me, he will pull back the line bit by bit and when I came closed, he will let it go again. Definitely not a nice feeling to have!

Currently, he is very angry, disappointed and discontented with me. He didnt want to reply my mail or even talk to me. He often highlights this matter to my friends (that shows how unhappy he is).

::

Why is he reacting so childishly?

::

He should know and understand my predicament (knock, knock, please put on your thinking cap). I think he should be sorry for what he has did to me last time. *I have done so much for you already and I guess it is time that I decide for my own good*.

::

Vengeance it's not the motive here and I have my valid reasons for it.

Blind Date?

Got to know a guy from Friendster. Read his profile and saw his photos. Had been communicating via email and found him to be a nice person (vaguely).

From his first message, he is already persuading me to go out on a date. He never fails to send me message everyday asking me to go out. Very persistent and desperate guy! I kept rejecting him over and over again until yesterday. Decided to go out, not with him but to meet him in Rum Jungle since my friends invited me to go there as well. I see no harm as I have my friends around with me, just in case he turns to the wild side.

As this is our first meeting, he didnt officially introduce himself, in turn I have to go through my own self-introduction. *Fine with that*. Getting myself comfortable with the environment as it was my first time to Rum Jungle. Had few rounds of drinks with my friends before squirming my way to his table, as he wanted to have a drink with me. Smart tip : Always bring along your own glass.

The night was short, as all of us were tired and hungry. With courtesy, I went and excuse myself for leaving early but he insisted that I have a last drink with him. Alright, he is starting to freak me out. I know he is a party animal and with his previous experience working in this entertainment line, he can be declared as a good drinker. But hey, it's not a masthead for me. He kept insisting that I bottoms-up the drink before I leave for the night. He knew that I cant take it anymore as I told him that I puked twice. *Just not my night for drinking*. Eventually, he let me go, having futile effort.

During supper, messages kept coming in (yes, it's from him) to enquire on my whereabout and also to ask if he could call me when I get home for a chit-chat. So, without hesitation, I replied that I am very tired, sleepy and will hit the sack once I get home. It seems that the message didnt get across clearly, as he called me when I was about to sleep. Chat for a while with 90% of my conversation hinting that I am very tired and sleepy.

The meet-up ended with the following verdict:

:: from the way he talks, I find him to be quite snobbish

:: not on the gentle or caring side as he kept pushing me to drink with him eventho he knew that I puked

:: no offence, but he kept disturbing me (as he called me non-stop the next day albeit I have told him that I am not free. To the extend, I have to switch off my phone)

:: kept asking if I am free to go out with him for lunch, dinner or 'yam cha'. Even for a short while also he would be delighted.

So, what do you think of this guy?

Sudden Departure of Jones

The news broke to us early this morning. His level of tolerance has came to an end. He is only 11 years old but I salute him for being such a brave child. He struggled through many months in the intensive care unit. Agony has not stop him from smiling whenever he was greeted by his friends and families.

Eventhough I have not met him in person, but I have known him since the day he was born. My sis often shares his story with us. That is when my emotions of sorrow really kicks in. I couldn't withold my grieve over this news, I actually cried while writing this entry. I dare not imagine the pain and sadness that the family have to go through.

It is really sad to see him leave just like that. Perhaps, we should take it in good faith that his demise will cease his sufferance. When it is time to go, means it's really time to go. Everything happens for a reason.

I hereby would like to express my deepest sympathy to his family and may Jones rest in peace.

Staying young

Come across this interesting article on 'How To Stay Young' and would like to share it with all of you....

:: Throw out non-essential numbers like your age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.

:: Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches one pull you down.

:: Keep learning and never let your brain idle!. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer.

:: Enjoy the simple things.

:: Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

:: The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

:: Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, friends, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

:: Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

:: Dont take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

:: Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER - Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Annoyance Neighbour

Our stupid neighbour above us, lodged a complaint to the management on us. She claimed that we are burning some fuel or material that causes smoke and obnoxious smell to her unit. As such, the management has send us a letter giving us a final reminder, by ccing to the Advocates & Solicitors.

Come on, what is your problem here? We are not burning anything that is harmful to anyone or that can create fire. All we did was just our normal routine of burning a joss stick every morning and evening. I dont think that small little joss stick will cause any harm to you. Moreover, it is for religion purposes.

Surly woman!

Extra kilos

Ahhhhhhhh..........I just realised that I have gained weight! I am so sad. I was at 48kg and now it went up to 50kg. 2kg in, like 2 months! Couldnt believe it that i will reach 50kg. The heaviest i go so far was at 49kg. I wonder is it because of Jazzercise, some fats had turned into muscles? Whatever it is, I must start my diet plan already. Must control on my food intake.......grrrrr.......

Slimming

Have you ever tried slimming before?

Last weekend, my gf and I went for a 'slimming' shopping around Damansara Utama. In DU, the convenience of the adjacent slimming centres are just the best to shop for slimming packages. We called up a few slimming centres and managed to make appointments for the few weekends to come. Our main intention is to try out those slimming centres that offer 1st trial package at a very minimal charge, i.e. RM18, RM19, RM49 and RM59 (max). However, it also depends on the type of slimming session they offered with such low prices.

Our 1st trial was with Terimee. Thought it will be a good one since their publicity is so huge with Charmaine Sheh as their ambassador. So, here it goes, our experience with Terimee.

• Made appointment by calling them up just outside their shop. Was hiding in the car with my gf.

• Without much explanation, they issued us a receipt for the 1st trial at RM19.90 per person. We felt kind of awkward because we have to pay before the session. Reason given, in case they forget..??????????..

• The beauticians and consultants' appearance are below our expectation. There is no professionalism in them. They can't speak proper English, in fact not even one. They can't speak proper Cantonese too and they prefer to converse in Mandarin.

• In fact, we have to ask them what are they going to do us. So, they offered us the thermal blanket for our 1st trial. The Thermal Blanket is a process whereby they wrap you up in a hot blanket to reduce your water retention, in turn you will shed off a few grams, as in very minimal grams only....not kilos....*mmmm how i wish*.... There is one slimming centre which offered garlic slim wrap (i have heard of chilli wrap which is quite common nowadays, but garlic wrap) - can't imagine the smell you have to bear....*eeeewwwwww*.....

• We are not suppose to wear anything except for the disposable panties. As we dont have one, so we requested from them. Usually they will have to provide such to us as it is part of their services, but no, we have to pay for it. RM1 for each. After changing, they took us to the measurement room, whereby they took down our weight and also our waist measurement by wearing their custom made short pants with sizes ranging from 22 - 30+.

• They started off with a sea salt scrub before wrapping us up in the hot blanket. The whole session will take around 45 mins. The experience was so torturing to be wrapped under the hot blanket and being motionless for at least 30 mins. We couldnt take it anymore, so we requested to be unwrapped 5 mins earlier, if not we will be swooned.

• After unwrapping, we are suppose to rest for at least 5-10 mins to let our body cool down. The feeling to me it's like a few rounds of jog. The exhausted feel. But it was a relief tho....*phewwwww*

• Went for a bath, thereafter, our measurements were taken down again to see the results. But i guess they cheated on the waist measurement as the first measurement was taken with loose fittings but the second one was taken with tighter fittings.

The consultant was not too happy with our refusal to sign the package. She kept giving us the negative remarks that even exercise can't help much and delay no more before your fats turn into stubborn fats *Duhhhhh......as if*

One word to describe the impression we had on Terimess - UNPROFESSIONAL

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in the world! You are the greatest!

We brought our mother and grandma to Ming Room, BSC for lunch but it was fully booked and occupied. We will have to wait at least an hour for a table. As we were too hungry and couldnt wait any longer, we head over to Esquire Kitchen, since my grandma likes the restaurant.

Albeit the restaurant is quite normal for such occasion, but all of us just love the food there. So in total, we have ordered 9 dishes for only 5 of us, and the wonderful thing is, not even a single dish left unfinished. I think my brother and myself ate the most.

Nevermind, to add extra kilos to it, I went and buy myself a Sundae and finished it up all by myself. I felt so guilty after that. I must control my diet already as I do not want to end up being called a 'pork chop'...wahhhhhh.......sob....sob...sob.....

Happy Birthday

Would like to wish someone Happy Birthday today.....

Happy Birthday to you and may this year brings you happiness, good health, luck, prosperity and good tidings to you and your family

To love or to be loved

Last time I used to have this thought that it's best to find someone that loves you more than you love him. When it became an open discussion with my girl friends, they also agreed to this proposition. However, after much excogitation, I have realised that I prefer to love than to be loved. Why so? Cause when you love someone, you will put in more effort for your love to last, to be as beautiful as it is and to be the backbone of our lives forever. Having the intense love inside you and in a reflex manner, you will .......

:: try your hardest at all times to be fair and honest with him
:: strive for your own goals and help him achieve his
:: always try to understand him
:: always let you know what you are thinking
:: always try to support him
:: always try to successfully blend both of your lives together with enough freedom to grow as individuals
:: always consider each day with him is special
:: regardless of what events occur in both of your lives, you will make sure that both of your relationship flourishes forever

But of course, it would be more perfect if the other party feels the same way too.

This has relate me to this situation that I am currently facing. There is this guy who loves me a lot. I would say that he is the type of guy that every girl would dream for, a perfect boyfriend. Girls out there are hoping to get hitch with him. Many potential ones but he rejected all of them. I do have feelings for him but I dont think it's a strong one, as part of my feelings are still glued to the previous one...*hmmphhh* I know, one day if the guy would to leave me (give up), I will definitely regret. I did try giving ourselves a chance but I felt that without the love feeling in me, I would not put in much effort. Yes, love will grow but I think I will have to drain out the other one first.

As for the previous one, I would do so much for him as I love him too much. No matter how much he hurts me, I will still forgive and forgive and still love him the same. Am I crazy or what?

Perhaps, love is just too complicated.

Great experience!

I got stuck in a lift, my first experience! Lucky thing is that the lights and fan didnt go off. It started when my friend invited me to view his condo. The condo is still new, not many occupants and i pressume the lifts are also new.

His unit is located in 17th floor, so on the way up to his floor, he was jumping and bouncing around with joy and excitement inside the lift and thinking that he is as light as a feather. Then, suddenly the lift stops at 15th floor. Thought it was a temporary breakdown but NOoooooo.....it stuck there for almost 1/2 hour! It took about 10 men to force open the lift and let us out.

To add agitation to it, one of my friend farted inside the lift! while waiting to be rescued. Luckily his fart is not the hazardous type. If not, i am sure it will bring fatality :-D *hahahahaha*

Disclosure

I was advised by my friend to let him go totally as my ex told him that he has no feelings for me anymore. Dont waste your time waiting for him. At first, i was really hurt to hear that, but eventually things turn out to be better than i thought. After knowing it, i felt so relief. At least i am not playing the guessing game here with myself, thinking whether he still has the feelings for me. For the past few months, i was really puzzled with his behaviour and treatment towards me. Sometimes he cares for me, and treat me well and sometimes NOT. He even brought me out for Valentine dinner and bought me a gift. What does that mean? During that time, still having the feelings residing deep down inside me, will definitely have the thinking that there is still hope.

My friend also told me that he is very hurt with his previous relationship with the Taiwanese girl. Apparently, that girl has a BF in Philippines and when he found out, he was so hurt. He said to my friend, how can he get such treatment from this girl whereby he treats her like precious? If i am there, my answer to him would be......WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND.....

Feeling down......

Dont know why, but am feeling very down today. Nope, it's not AV (aunty's visit). Just the unexplainable feeling....

LOVE...

A question to ponder.....

Heard this statement in a movie yesterday....'If LOVE is so easy to let go, then it is not LOVE'.....

What do you think? Agreeable?

Astrological Weight at Birth

Has anyone out there knows about this? I just got to know it recently. In fact people say your luck is based on your astrological weight at birth. The Chinese traditionally believe that this weight offers an accurate indication of the baby's life fortune. Hmmm, if that is the case, I wonder how will those parents-to-be know when is the best date and time to get a perfect weight. According to sources, the minimum weight is at 2.2 (2 'liang' 2 'chin') and heaviest is at 7.7. So, the heavier you are, the better it is.

All you need is your chinese birth date and time. Time is very significant here, as it shows your entire life fortune. I have done my calculation (if my time is correct) and the reading goes like this;

' You are a good-hearted and intelligent person. Doing things efficiently will bring you to the attention of an influential person. Food and clothes in your life are yours by heaven luck. You do not need to work too hard to succeed. Place a wealth cat in the Southeast to bring you money luck. Also try to do some charity work to improve your store of good karma.'

Perhaps i am going to be an altruist soon :-P I am not really a feng shui type of person but do you think i should get a wealth cat? Will it really bring money luck to me?

If you are curious to know your astrological weight, you can check it out on www.wofs.com and please do remember to share it with me ah!

a Nite out with 'him' and friends....

Went Poppy with him and friends. Was taken a back by my feelings, I actually gave him a hug and kiss. To my surprise, he also did the same in return. Was he doing it just for the sake of doing it? or is it true that he still misses me? Whatever his feelings are, I shouldnt be caring so much cause i know we will never be together again. I like to ponder on all kinds of questions, though i know i wont get the answer, but sometimes it's just beyond my control.

A friend of mine called it 'stupidity' as i still see him and go out with him. I know it is very stupid of me to react this way. I am accountable for all my doings and actions. Nobody knows what i am feeling deep down inside. I really wish i could get rid of him but at the moment i just cant.....

Great Birthday!

It's my 27th birthday today. Gosh, getting older already. Real scaryyyy....Started my celebration since Saturday, 26/3 till 2/4....hmm... it's like cny celebration that goes on for 15 days.....not... :-D

Had dinner with my family in a Japanese restaurant and thereafter went to meet up with my friends in La Bodega. Was having a great time drinking, laughing and playing Pictionary. We changed the rules of the game, instead of drawing it out, we actually act it out. There goes, our super duper acting skill.....whereby one of them needs to do 'Prawn Cracker'.......can imagine huh? We were really laughing our s*** out.

I was treated with 2 birthday songs. The 2nd one came up just because the other group celebrating their friend's birthday too, sang it louder than us. So, my friends decided to sing it again for me!

Alright, without denial, I really had a good time and the 'prawn cracker' moments will be forever embedded in my mind.

My FiRst Time.....

Alright, my first time blogging. Got this 'virus' from my friends and colleagues who do blogging quite often. I find it quite interesting and cool. So, there goes, creating my own blog in this blogger.com. And before i could even start writing, i was already 'cunt'fusing myself in the process of creating. One of my colleagues also started this together with me. So both of us look so 'busy' as though we got a lot of work to do but actually busy finding out how to post our pictures lah, creating our blog name, choosing the template...etc......

After all the hassle, we finally got it! phewwww.....didnt know it was so 'ma fan'. But whatever it is, there is always a first time. Hmmm...i wonder is it too late to start blogging? Will i get addicted-blogger fanatic? or will i just leave it to the spider to build their webs, after getting bored with it? Anyway, I shall see how it goes.......time will tell....

At first, blog to me is like ....."what is that?"....u mean 'block'?...i know i know i am from another planet...hey, but i picked up fast tho...after some enlightenment from my frens....not too bad right?

It's good to learn new things everyday......at least ur life is not wasted....

It has been a year.....

Time really flies, like a blink of an eye....It has been a year already since 'he' left me for someone else. Reminiscing those times, really hurts. Didnt know i could make it thus far but yet he still sits in my mind. Really thought time will heal everything but dont think I am getting any further than that. It is so weak inside me whenever i hear his name, his voice, his smile.....just anything or everything about 'him'.

I have not seen him for weeks, until today. It was just a casual 'yam cha' with our friends after a seminar. I acted cool and try not to talk to him so much to avoid being hurt but in fact my effeminate features are running wild. I dont even know what i really want at that point of time. Talk or dont talk...see or dont see.....care or dont care.....I dont know why am i feeling this way, is it because i knew he is seeing someone else already? I did notice that he actually look at me few times. Trust me i am not being sensitive or wat, but i really saw him doing that.

Sometimes i really wish to know what is in his mind.