Scuttlebutt II

This morning, while I was on my way to breakfast, I bumped into the guy who spread the rumor. He was surprised to see me. He has the ‘you are found guilty’ kind of look. He didn’t greet me; in turn I greeted him and he acted cool, giving the snobbish look.

Seeing him really make me feel like giving him a flying kick on his face.

&^%$#@!*&

Lonely

I do agree with this. I do feel that. :(

Thought

My thought tells me that I want to leave this place and start life anew in a fresh place. But my self conscious tells me I cant leave my family behind. Sometimes I really don't know what is wrong with me. I kept having this thought that I have not done good enough and I am selfish. I just can't explain my feelings. I can be happy for that moment and sad for the next moment.

Ahhhhh.....dont care...dont bother.....

In loving memory of Kok How

Many are celebrating Autumn Festival today. But for me, it's not a day to light the lantern; it's a day whereby I lit the joss stick and pay my last respect to him.

News came to me in the morning. I was speechless and shocked. He passed away at 715am after having difficulty in breathing. He has been very strong in accepting the fact that he is not getting any better. A friend told me that he once said he is not afraid of death, he is just afraid of leaving us as he is going to miss us dearly. I broke into tears. It is really sad to see him leave. Perhaps, it is good for him as it will cease his sufferance. It really grieves me in seeing his sorrowful family.

I hereby pay my last tribute of respect to you and you will forever be remembered and missed by your family and friends.