Happy Birthday

Would like to wish someone Happy Birthday today.....

Happy Birthday to you and may this year brings you happiness, good health, luck, prosperity and good tidings to you and your family

To love or to be loved

Last time I used to have this thought that it's best to find someone that loves you more than you love him. When it became an open discussion with my girl friends, they also agreed to this proposition. However, after much excogitation, I have realised that I prefer to love than to be loved. Why so? Cause when you love someone, you will put in more effort for your love to last, to be as beautiful as it is and to be the backbone of our lives forever. Having the intense love inside you and in a reflex manner, you will .......

:: try your hardest at all times to be fair and honest with him
:: strive for your own goals and help him achieve his
:: always try to understand him
:: always let you know what you are thinking
:: always try to support him
:: always try to successfully blend both of your lives together with enough freedom to grow as individuals
:: always consider each day with him is special
:: regardless of what events occur in both of your lives, you will make sure that both of your relationship flourishes forever

But of course, it would be more perfect if the other party feels the same way too.

This has relate me to this situation that I am currently facing. There is this guy who loves me a lot. I would say that he is the type of guy that every girl would dream for, a perfect boyfriend. Girls out there are hoping to get hitch with him. Many potential ones but he rejected all of them. I do have feelings for him but I dont think it's a strong one, as part of my feelings are still glued to the previous one...*hmmphhh* I know, one day if the guy would to leave me (give up), I will definitely regret. I did try giving ourselves a chance but I felt that without the love feeling in me, I would not put in much effort. Yes, love will grow but I think I will have to drain out the other one first.

As for the previous one, I would do so much for him as I love him too much. No matter how much he hurts me, I will still forgive and forgive and still love him the same. Am I crazy or what?

Perhaps, love is just too complicated.

Great experience!

I got stuck in a lift, my first experience! Lucky thing is that the lights and fan didnt go off. It started when my friend invited me to view his condo. The condo is still new, not many occupants and i pressume the lifts are also new.

His unit is located in 17th floor, so on the way up to his floor, he was jumping and bouncing around with joy and excitement inside the lift and thinking that he is as light as a feather. Then, suddenly the lift stops at 15th floor. Thought it was a temporary breakdown but NOoooooo.....it stuck there for almost 1/2 hour! It took about 10 men to force open the lift and let us out.

To add agitation to it, one of my friend farted inside the lift! while waiting to be rescued. Luckily his fart is not the hazardous type. If not, i am sure it will bring fatality :-D *hahahahaha*

Disclosure

I was advised by my friend to let him go totally as my ex told him that he has no feelings for me anymore. Dont waste your time waiting for him. At first, i was really hurt to hear that, but eventually things turn out to be better than i thought. After knowing it, i felt so relief. At least i am not playing the guessing game here with myself, thinking whether he still has the feelings for me. For the past few months, i was really puzzled with his behaviour and treatment towards me. Sometimes he cares for me, and treat me well and sometimes NOT. He even brought me out for Valentine dinner and bought me a gift. What does that mean? During that time, still having the feelings residing deep down inside me, will definitely have the thinking that there is still hope.

My friend also told me that he is very hurt with his previous relationship with the Taiwanese girl. Apparently, that girl has a BF in Philippines and when he found out, he was so hurt. He said to my friend, how can he get such treatment from this girl whereby he treats her like precious? If i am there, my answer to him would be......WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND.....

Feeling down......

Dont know why, but am feeling very down today. Nope, it's not AV (aunty's visit). Just the unexplainable feeling....

LOVE...

A question to ponder.....

Heard this statement in a movie yesterday....'If LOVE is so easy to let go, then it is not LOVE'.....

What do you think? Agreeable?

Astrological Weight at Birth

Has anyone out there knows about this? I just got to know it recently. In fact people say your luck is based on your astrological weight at birth. The Chinese traditionally believe that this weight offers an accurate indication of the baby's life fortune. Hmmm, if that is the case, I wonder how will those parents-to-be know when is the best date and time to get a perfect weight. According to sources, the minimum weight is at 2.2 (2 'liang' 2 'chin') and heaviest is at 7.7. So, the heavier you are, the better it is.

All you need is your chinese birth date and time. Time is very significant here, as it shows your entire life fortune. I have done my calculation (if my time is correct) and the reading goes like this;

' You are a good-hearted and intelligent person. Doing things efficiently will bring you to the attention of an influential person. Food and clothes in your life are yours by heaven luck. You do not need to work too hard to succeed. Place a wealth cat in the Southeast to bring you money luck. Also try to do some charity work to improve your store of good karma.'

Perhaps i am going to be an altruist soon :-P I am not really a feng shui type of person but do you think i should get a wealth cat? Will it really bring money luck to me?

If you are curious to know your astrological weight, you can check it out on www.wofs.com and please do remember to share it with me ah!

a Nite out with 'him' and friends....

Went Poppy with him and friends. Was taken a back by my feelings, I actually gave him a hug and kiss. To my surprise, he also did the same in return. Was he doing it just for the sake of doing it? or is it true that he still misses me? Whatever his feelings are, I shouldnt be caring so much cause i know we will never be together again. I like to ponder on all kinds of questions, though i know i wont get the answer, but sometimes it's just beyond my control.

A friend of mine called it 'stupidity' as i still see him and go out with him. I know it is very stupid of me to react this way. I am accountable for all my doings and actions. Nobody knows what i am feeling deep down inside. I really wish i could get rid of him but at the moment i just cant.....

Great Birthday!

It's my 27th birthday today. Gosh, getting older already. Real scaryyyy....Started my celebration since Saturday, 26/3 till 2/4....hmm... it's like cny celebration that goes on for 15 days.....not... :-D

Had dinner with my family in a Japanese restaurant and thereafter went to meet up with my friends in La Bodega. Was having a great time drinking, laughing and playing Pictionary. We changed the rules of the game, instead of drawing it out, we actually act it out. There goes, our super duper acting skill.....whereby one of them needs to do 'Prawn Cracker'.......can imagine huh? We were really laughing our s*** out.

I was treated with 2 birthday songs. The 2nd one came up just because the other group celebrating their friend's birthday too, sang it louder than us. So, my friends decided to sing it again for me!

Alright, without denial, I really had a good time and the 'prawn cracker' moments will be forever embedded in my mind.

My FiRst Time.....

Alright, my first time blogging. Got this 'virus' from my friends and colleagues who do blogging quite often. I find it quite interesting and cool. So, there goes, creating my own blog in this blogger.com. And before i could even start writing, i was already 'cunt'fusing myself in the process of creating. One of my colleagues also started this together with me. So both of us look so 'busy' as though we got a lot of work to do but actually busy finding out how to post our pictures lah, creating our blog name, choosing the template...etc......

After all the hassle, we finally got it! phewwww.....didnt know it was so 'ma fan'. But whatever it is, there is always a first time. Hmmm...i wonder is it too late to start blogging? Will i get addicted-blogger fanatic? or will i just leave it to the spider to build their webs, after getting bored with it? Anyway, I shall see how it goes.......time will tell....

At first, blog to me is like ....."what is that?"....u mean 'block'?...i know i know i am from another planet...hey, but i picked up fast tho...after some enlightenment from my frens....not too bad right?

It's good to learn new things everyday......at least ur life is not wasted....

It has been a year.....

Time really flies, like a blink of an eye....It has been a year already since 'he' left me for someone else. Reminiscing those times, really hurts. Didnt know i could make it thus far but yet he still sits in my mind. Really thought time will heal everything but dont think I am getting any further than that. It is so weak inside me whenever i hear his name, his voice, his smile.....just anything or everything about 'him'.

I have not seen him for weeks, until today. It was just a casual 'yam cha' with our friends after a seminar. I acted cool and try not to talk to him so much to avoid being hurt but in fact my effeminate features are running wild. I dont even know what i really want at that point of time. Talk or dont talk...see or dont see.....care or dont care.....I dont know why am i feeling this way, is it because i knew he is seeing someone else already? I did notice that he actually look at me few times. Trust me i am not being sensitive or wat, but i really saw him doing that.

Sometimes i really wish to know what is in his mind.